What's a morbid nocturnal goth to do?

Does anyone know of any careers out there that will fit me? I'm goth and very outspoken when it comes to my beliefs, I don't get queasy when I talk about blood and sutff (but my family does). In other words I can handle gorey horror movies like Saw, Sweeney Todd the Demon Barber of Fleet Street, etc,etc... I'm actually by nature nocturnal I feel more alive and less tired and edgy when it's nighttime.... I'm a full on "night-bat" (instead of night-owl).. The only job I can think of that by definition is "morbid" or suits my life-style is a mortician.....? I really want a job that is somehow really creepy or morbid or fits with my lifestyle..... Or one that I can at least feel happy at... I want to one day move out of this "hell-hole" GA...To somewhere that's almost always cold and maybe foggy like Forks Washington.... I don't know what kind of jobs are out there since I've lived a pretty sheltered life.. My dad is retired from the airforce.... So I think you can guess why I say "sheltered"..... I really want to find my place in this world that I can call my own life... My own family doesn't understand why I'm so pessimistic about life and so moody..My mom thinks it's because I'm depressed... Well if you had a life like mine you'd be moody too.. I'm not very trusting of people since every single damned person who ever wanted to be my friend ended up stabbing me in the back..... So you can see why I'm pessimistic...


                                


                                Morbidly Yours,
                    SylverFire 

Imma Goth Girl:: Life is dull.

OK, so my life is duller then dull...so what...At least I'm being me, myself and I. Why should I feel this need to cry? I don't know about you others, but death is the inevitable, we all die. So what if I don't scream and shout about the things other chicks my age do...? Conformity is the lamest of lame. Sure I've got dreams, but I'm also realistic about myself. I want to sing and dance and act. But I know that will be awhile. So in the meantime I write, and I draw. I'll get my day soon. Even then I won't conform to the ways of the celebs.... I won't! I am an individual with my own personality! People aren't going to tell me how to dress or what to say!! It's not going to be like that, no way! I am who I am: goth. That is what I always will be. It isn't some phase, it isn't a "clique", it isn't the music or the clothes... It's a way of life. I will always be me, myself and I, cuz that all I can be.

Morbidly Yours

SylverFire